Insomnia

Looking on the left corner of window, the clock showing me 3.08a.m.
Actually I tried to sleep since 2.00a.m.
But unfortunately I failed to fall asleep…
I keep tumble on my bed
Wth… What’s wrong with me?
Why tonight I will insomnia?
The only reason is – I have drink 2 cups of coffee before I lying on my bed (0.0)!!!
Half an hour I tumble on my bed
It’s time to stop wasting my time, just wake up and find something to do better than just lying on my bed doing nothing
I move up and sit on my bed
A question was filled in my mind:” guy, what you gonna do if you don’t want to sleep?”
I also don’t know, but I really can’t sleep
Just study for a while or write blog, your blog really lack of updating!
Ok, just write something
---SOMETHING---
Seriously, I really can’t sleep
I think I won’t told you that now still haven’t sleep.
All about the stupid coffee’s fault
If I know drink coffee will cause me insomnia than I think I will choose to drink more than 2 cups, lol…
Just kidding, my coffee is going to expired already, we are learned not to waste food or drink since I start educated
Teacher told me still have many people around of us are facing for insufficient food, so we are not allow to waste our food
Teacher, I just follow your order
But it makes me insomnia
Last sem I had take a subject called ‘pengantar etika’
It is about while happen a phenomenon, there are always two different ways for you to choose
There are no perfect way for you but you can find the way that give you the most advantages and the less disadvantages
For example, now I am insomnia due to I have drunk 2 cups of coffee before I sleep
The motive that I drink the 2 cups of coffee is I don’t want to waste it before it reaches its expired date
I just want to follow the lesson from teacher
But the result is I was insomnia
Insomnia may cause me can’t wake up early on tomorrow morning and may affect the schedule which is already planned
From the result, I found that the disadvantage is larger than the advantage I had received
The disadvantage from the result is I was insomnia and seem like no advantage that I received by follow the lesson from teacher
Let’s see if I choose another way by wasting the coffee and sleep
If I make such decision, that’s mean I had avoid what was taught by teacher
Although I was ignored the importance of the moral value, but it seem like doesn’t give me any disadvantage and I can fall asleep easily without facing for insomnia
This may ensure that my schedule on the next day can run smoothly without affected by any factor
If compare the both ways, obviously the second way provide me the better condition and forcing me to waste
Conflicts are always exist in our life and we should know how to make our decisions
Some people may think that the moral value is the most important fact for them to make any decisions, so they should prefer insomnia than wasting coffee
You can called them obstinate or stupid
But some people always put their own advantages as their basic decision, so they should choose the second way without consider the moral value
You can called them smart or selfish
No decisions give the perfect result but depend on the person who makes the decision
Everyone should clear with their demand before they make the final decision
Everything has the positive yet negative
Make your smartest decision as you won’t regret in the future
Oi, jiak pa bo su jor ah?
Ko mai kun!
The clock shows 4.13a.m.
Study for a while la… bye

Appreciation Night...

12th April 2009
It should just a simple appreciation night for Terence Tan, but it is unforgettable for Mr. rednose...
Actually Terence wish to absent for this appreciation night due to we were lost in selling tickets and have to perform in appreciation as a punishment.
Although Terence was planned to choose a song to sing together, but really hard to arrange a period of time to practice together. Finally Terence had made a decision to solo... Haiz... what a stupid decision...
After practice Terence still can't handle this song, the timing really hard to catch...
The result is, Terence Tan had made the worst performance on the appreciation night ( even my performace is quite popular on the night ).
The stories of Terence Tan was came to the end and it was just the beginning story of rednose.
After the worst performance from Terence Tan, there was a climax of the appreciation night after our VVIP---TNC had leave our ballroom.
The music was released and Mr. rednose was walked over you.
"Shall i invite her to dance with me?"
Mr. rednose have no idea about it, he just walk away slowly to calm down.
But under forcing by their friends, Mr. rednose invite her to dance and she was accepted.
When Mr. rednose hold her small hand, he really wish that this period can be remaining as long as well.
He looks and her eyes while he talk to her, his breath was erratically.
He was enjoy this period and happiness was surrounding him.
When the music stopped, everything was came to the end.
But an unforgettable memory was recorded forever...

Apologise

Sorry my friends, i am busy in Sabah that's why long time never update my blog here.
What is the reason i lack of time to update my blog, wa ma em zai... ask my pa la.
Actually i want to update every single month geh, but last month i forgot jor, so nevermind la, i am not that hardwork.
How am i in Sabah, so so lo.
Something flow in my mind recently recently, one thing that i already keep it for a plenty of time was'pop' out from my mind.
My mind was out of control , but my action still in level-headed.
What was happen to me again, do not ask me such question because it is a secret. You shall be know if you are my friends.
My blog, you will get it one day in your lifetime.
When you are reading my blog, you already own a special place in my heart either best friend or... You will be the special one.
Now i am waiting for final exam, waiting for the holidays, waiting for going back to hometown, waiting for the period gather with my old friends, waiting for the trip to Bali and also waiting for a person who is special for rednose.
Everything is fine and i am enjoy with you all. Wish everything is going well and continue my step to be a man.
Happy April Fool~

To: Kenny Heng Yi Yong ( the most yong sui person in Shichi)

Since you are going to Aus study already so I will treat you nicer before you flight to Aus. Unfortunately I cannot fulfill the deal before you go to Aus, you know la… want to ask a person that you really love and she also love you really not that easy. I think u also have a lot of experience ler, hohoho… but really, I try my best already but I have to tell you that I could not take the status of ‘not available’ from myself. But hopefully I will success very soon, since I already 21 years old for the coming birthday. This is my only goal that I wish to hit before my 21 birthday. It should be a wonderful present for me.
Ok, now the topic need to focus back to you – the most yong sui person in shichi. Although you are yong sui, but god treat every human by the same ruler. You are also given the chance to have you own love too. You know la, no wonder how yong sui you are, there is always a person will appreciate your good! So do not miss up any chance to find your real love! Now your market not only limit in M’sia but also Aus already, now you have international love market even you are yong sui! But never mind la, yong sui not your fault. It is one of your talent and maybe your only talent since I be friend with you. Faster find a girlfriend la, tell me that you are a not a boy anymore. Be a man ok!
In my memory, if not mistaken I know you through playing football when we are form 4. From football until form 5 graduate’s trip and then shichi comes out. I never think that I will be so close with our gang. Maybe this is ‘round shit’, just like the meteor cross by the sky. Not all the people on the earth have the chance to see it but luckily, we met each other and build up a friendship by our heart. Since between shichi have so many unforgettable memories, all of you are already walk into my heart and my life. all of you are a important part in my story, without shichi without Kenny heng, my story could not be complete. Friendship is very important to me and shichi are always get the 1st seat among my friends. This is the trust and never been change. Wish our friendship will never come to the end and all the best in your future life in Aus. Take care dude!

As a Admirer

Today is the fifth of Chinese New Year, this is my most boring CNY since i had borned...
Last year i make the decision to stay in sabah during my CNY
The reason is...?
The flight ticket is too expensive?
I wish to have a different CNY this year?
I want to be independence?
Or... I stay in Sabah because you also stay in Sabah...?
Don't ask me the real answer
from the 1st day of CNY, i totally no chance to see you... even 1 second, both of us stay in sabah during cny but... today is already fifth of cny, i can't really meet u
my purpose to stay is want to pass my cny with you but i failed to do that.
as a friend situation, can we celebrate cny together?
yes, i think so. but we never celebrate together.
mayb i should ask myself, am i ur friend or i am just a stranger?
Terence or rednose, a person never walk into ur life.
a person totally stand far far away from ur sight.

If love is a circle
i just walk around the circle
but i have no courage to walk into the circle right now
because i know the answer
i would like wait
and wait
and wait...
until you are open your eyes to allow me walk into ur sight
four years sabah's life
maybe i will leave it for you silently...